Benci
1. In 8hours time, I will be starting my new clinical placement miles away from my house. Benci that long distance travel. Benci that I wasn’t given my options. Benci the fact that lotsa housekeeping work hasn’t been organised. Benci to deal with people who don’t dispaly certain standard of leadership. Benci. Benci. Benci.
I shall reserve my pre-judgemental before I get any further, serisouly. Those negative thoughts serisouly bring me to half metre depth of shithole. I don’t usually being so negative. But at this moment, I just can’t stop thinking of the bogenism of my work area. Sorry Dab, it is not you, it is ME! 
Amitaba. I just wanna get it done, and get over it. Seven weeks full time job, with NO pay. I can deal with that.
Dean, thanks for calling. I am fine. I will be fine. You are right, if a person who don’t show their leadership, it allows me to shine thru my way (just like a star?) I hope so. I am one big-time hopeless case myself afterall. sigh
2. Benci those people who prefer critic me behind my back rather tell me right infront of my face. I don’t read between the lines because I am not g*y like them! Benci those people who don’t consider me (our) feeling and insist us to give them a helping hand. Erm..is that an obligation? I wundah. Benci those people who like to argue with me over nothing. You hear me, NOTHING!! As if someone can talk over me over nothing, can make them happy? I am ok. I am not a debater or politician-wannabe..I am a classic bimbo without a well-function brain. If you think you can talk over an idiot like me, and you think you WIN? congrat! Welcome to my MAXIS (maximum idiotic stupidity) Club 
3. Benci Deevine Cafe. Poor customer service. Benci the fact they didn’t offer to show us breakfast menu. Benci the waitress get the wrong oder–does lemon lime and bitter sounds the same as ice coffee with cream???? Benci. Benci the fact that the muffin didnt come with butter. Benci big time that our plate was taken away without asking our permission!!! Hey!! I hadn’t finish my CHIPS yet!!!! my chipsss!!! argh! so damn the benci, can?
Benci! *jump, jump, jump* step on the dead autumn leaves!!! dance like no tomorrow with the crazy music. if there is a g*y ant, g*y whatever..my boot shall step that mofo till dead..and end up like taiwanese stink toufoo. ekekek.
OK! Pheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew!! I am done with my benci-ing feeling. I am fine now
Wish me luck for my new job.
p/s: benci (malay language) means hate. I don’t hate, I am just frustrated. I shall change benci to geram (frustrated) instead, but can’t be stuffed 
nite
Now that’s what I call a good hearty tantrum! Go, you girl! Get those bencis outta your system. Feels much better, yes!
And good luck for your new job, ya?
Aww… don’t benci. Come, sayang sayang.
Nevertheless, I have to say, I agree with some of your bencis. Hehe.
Hope all the bensi and geram feelings pass quickly. Does the clinic require you to live away from home for this time too? Wishing you the best.
Early early morning I also felt benci liao. Some commenter talk like they know me for ages and talk like they so smart lidat. tiu! I mean, benci!
Sabar dik, sabar. Now, tarik nafas panjang…..
u feel better now? good luck on ur new job
You just have to come work in the area … I live AND work here! lol
Yeah, it’s full of Bogens!!!
Just be thankful you have the police a little bit up the street from you. The Pharmacy is a nice one. I’ve always had good service when I’ve been in there. [Just watch out for the people begging for money in the car park though!]
If I get to go to the Bank and Post office tomorrow, I might wave on the way past. [Can’t stop … having an audit over the next few days!]
LB: i try to get out as much as i can..deep down, i dont really have much tantrum to throw..thats what i realised at the end, really
day dreamer: life is a b*tch, innit? i need to find dalai lama or some ppl like that =) borrow their positive energy,,calm me!! Hahha
simple america:thanks! i dont need to leave home. But i need to travel for a good half-an hour. Great! I know..im a spoilt brat.
HQ: get out your benci-ness..throw out your temperature!! u ll feel good! =P
kak flower: tarik-ing…. satu, dua, tiga.
wuching: yeah..better now. thanks!
dabido: erm…u work in Police station right? can i have lunch break there? i like doing friendly neighbourhood thingy. any hot policeman? *ahem*
[…] First day at lunch: I decided to take photos for my lunch everyday at work for the next coming seven weeks. If possible, I will walk around..check out the local. I may love what I benci before, all I need is open up myself first. […]
Hey from afar oe when limpek don’t have the
Hey from afar, when limpek don’t have the 老花眼鏡put on, the emblem on you handbag looks like a “哭”..may be that is the problem
別垂頭喪氣了, put on your Paul Frank monkey collection and smile !
Cynthia - I don’t work at the police station, I work at the PCYC [Police and Community Youth Centre] doing admin and crime prevention work.
You can drop in for lunch if you like … but we’re actually in Maddington.
No hunky policemen where I work … my new boss is Kay … she’s not man, but she is a police officer and quite a nice person.