Today is Mother’s day.
In case, you don’t know. Or probably you were already over-informed by those commercials.
For me, is time to call home. Not only my mum, but my aunties (dad’s two younger sisters and mum’s only sister), my grandaunty (my dad’s aunty (his mum’s younger sister) ).
Sound like I have very busybody day, what you expect? I’m from a small happy family… everybody loves everybody. =)
I wish there is an extension phone in the heaven, ’cause I want to call my grandma. Today is her 3rd year leaving us. I still feel terrible for the whole thing.
My grandma suffered from brain and lung cancer (2003), which was re-occuring medical condition from 1998. Back then, she had kidney tumour.
Three years ago, she complaints about headache; I didn’t know much that time. (even now, I also don’t know much =P) So, with the encouragments from whole family, I took her to hospital. Yeah, why encouragement from whole family? ’cause they are too soft-hearted.(?) Grandma respected me the most among all the grandchildren as I am the eldest.
In the hospital, I informed the doctors must not tell her what-so-ever. All the information must went to my dad, uncles, aunties or me. Shamefully, there was this doctor with itchy anal and itchy mouth, told my grandma: 你的腦壞了! (Your brain is damaged) Tiuniaseng that doctor
Grandma panic. Of course, she did. She told me off in the wad, right infront of my family: 卜你媽(F your mother),你不要以為你會講英文 (don’t think you know how to speak English), 我不會聽 ( I don’t understand).因為你帶我來看醫生(’case you bring me to hospital) ; 醫生說我的腦壞了 (Doctor said my brain is damaged),我要死了(I am dying).
There you go. The first word, “F ur M” craked the ice in the whole ward, but the rest of the words haunted me for the rest of my life. Grandma was born in small town Teluk Intan, she wasn’t really educated. She didn’t swear, but the F thing, I could understand how depressed she was at that time.
I couldn’t do much. I was upset. Damn! Why me? I was the youngest adult she could blame at that time..so, it was OK?(.)
I flew back to Perth after 3 days. The whole thing was hauting me, still… brain damaged..dying… my fault?
Few months later, she passed away. Dad didn’t want me to know. But I have close aunty who informed me. I flew home. Didn’t really dare to see her ’sleeping’ in the coffin.
I bitched about my feeling to everyone at home. Yes, every single one. From dad to my cousin, my mum’s highschool best friend–if I didn’t get it out, I would probably die. Is like..er..you had gas in your stomach, and if you don’t fart, it stinks!!!!!!!!
Oh well, it has been years now. What can I say.. Life is abit like that–Things come, things gone; people come, people gone.
Anyway, wish you all a Happy Mother’s Day and feel happy to get your blood sucked by those expensive restaurants and florist!! Woohoo~!!!!!
=)
Happy Mother’s day to u too … hehe
sbanboy: thank you! where is my present?
I rmbr Mary Alice in Desparate Housewives said something before, about when you r dead, you could see and hear things more clearly and coz there’s no boundaries anymore…
if its so, maybe u dun need a phone to tell yr grandma Happy Mother’s Day afterall…Just look up and wish aloud to the sky…she’ll know…=)
er, but do that when nobody’s around lar…jz in case…u knw how ppl is nowadays…-.-
happy mother’s day to you cynthia…
read that bit about your grandmother…very poigent and sad. i don’t know when i’ll go but i hope my loved ones are around me.
(and i don’t know if it’s appropriate here, but i wish to go with a huge dose of opiates in me too)
lyn: yeah, thanks.. will do that when no one is around. in case.. =)
killuminati: Thank you… I dont need to be a mum but ppl still wish me happy mother’s day, how cool is that? Oh! for the last bit ay, IF i suffer any type of cancers at the end of my life, I wanna die in that way too,,,so I will leave the earth painless. =) They didnt give my grandma any painkiller, not even tramadol!!!! she was in great pain b4 she left us.
happy mothers day~~
eh.. belated liaw.. hahah`
Dont be sad, your grandma is watching you. As always….
sorry to hear about your grandma. Life is fragile. Treasure every moments we have
Yeah, not forgetting to wish u & your mummy Happy Mother’s day; belated one loh
a^ben: yeah! you know is belated liaw.. u should make it on time..blah blah blah.. make you feel guilty =) LOL
flower:is ok..what happend was in the past. move on. Oh! was it your first mother’s day in Perth? how was it??
Chen: thank you! happy mother’s day to you too!!
This mother’s day post is very differenet from others, a little sad but I like it,say what’s on your mind!
cooknengr: thanks 师傅 . Yeah, my mum is not here.. so no celebration. =) Cheh! actually no need one la..everyday is mother’s day! =)